Kiwi is me!

From six months ago when we first heard that we are being restructured, till mid Mar when the bangalore and China  people came for training, then we receive our notification letter to inform us that we will be leaving in 2 batches till we finally farewell in 13 Jun 2008, everything seems to be happening very soon. I keep hoping that one day the client might find the ppl in Bangalore and China cannot make it and hire us back.

Still remember on the day that the news was announce, before that we r only told that we will be meeting the new management that has come onboard recently. We are still very excited about it, joking about dressing nicely. We are even more excited when we know that they have cater buffet for us too. Pretty dumb. Then the man started showing us ppt slides which we don quite understand, until he said that our jobs will be affected. Then we sensed something is not right. They did counsel us abit after that but what’s the use. But the saddest thing is when our manager told us how stress was he when he already know of this news, but couldn”t tell us, and innocent us were still joking around outside. It was really a great hit when we know we will be leaving.

On the day we know the news of this, we have the intention of arranging farewell gift exchange. Though its lame but we have made it real. To make it a little more interesting, we have added the condition that before you present your gift to that person, you must describe a little about he/she. It added a little fun to the whole thing and even colleague from next door came over to check out whats going on.

Most people are pretty shy to talk initially. Some even tried to use their "eyes power" to hint the person. The most touching part is when my manager is describing one of my colleague. Telling us about his first impression about her of being soft spoken and timid, till present where she is firm and strong. I still remember my first impression of her being unfriendly. When i first enter this company, we are sitting at a little corner together. She never talk to me and never ask me out for lunch. We only started talking when i offer my help with her journal. From there, i was being ask to do her China invoice processing, and because of her training and help, i became China query management. So this lady is none other than my partner Elena. She is someone who is always very concern about us, regardless work or personal. Always ready to listen and provide her advice. And she is always telling i must fight for my own benefits, dont be too soft to let people bullied. I guess maybe she grew from there too, so she understand.

After work, we packed our things and when out for dinner again. As we have a sumptuous buffet lunch, we are still quite full, so in e end we settled down at BK to have some snacks. Talking took up most of our time. Jean say if BK is 24 hours, i think we will continue to talk. I agree. After today, this kinda gathering is difficult to get.

Actually I thought i might cry, but in e end i din. Might be too tired previously preparing for exams and farewell gifts that my emotions are numb, or i have already got used to this since we are the last batch to leave. But i really feel very "she bu de". This might be the best job i have, with good company and colleagues. It sadden me when one of the colleague told us that she and another colleague are planning to work till 50 years old initially.

Though we might have complaints over work, and feel stress or frustrated over some issues, but we still likes here because every time our colleagues and supervisor will there to lend their hands or give advice. You are never alone here. Though i have not been in many companies but i know not all colleagues are helpful. OR maybe will not go all way out to help. And most importantly, no office politics. Can still remember how i was being used as a pawn in the garden. But its also because of the office politics in garden i started doing accounts, which let me have the chance to end up here. So i guess there are always 2 sides to everything.

Yesterday Elaine invited us to her house. She has prepared steamboat for us. SHe has been a very good host, keep afraid that we dont have enough to eat, keep replenishing food and hardly eat. After steamboat still have fruits, chocolate and tibits. I cant imagine the steamboat in lunch can last all the way to now. Thats the only meal we eat and its very filling. I have been hoping to invite them to my house, but it really takes a big project to clean up and i need to check my chef’s schedule since i’m a handicap in kitchen.

Anyway have been telling everyone i see i’m not looking forward to the arrival of monday. Cause i will be going back to the same office, but with different team doing different project. Happy thing is out of the 5 members in the new project, 4 is from the old team. There are still people that can be count on, and we all understand each other’s feeling due to the change. From a team of 24 till 5, work will be more quiet.

By the way msn is being block in my company. DAmn.. Though i hardly online during work, but the tot of cant using if i need it is bad enough. There is still alot that cant be use, or mabe can only go into company’s website. So cant check movie timeslot in the future. 1 yr is the period i gv myself, don wanna stay in a company without freedom. To me, by blocking our excess to the outside world is just showing that they don trust their staff. Still the same thing, not looking forward!!!!!

Shall update about my new work soon. Good luck for us!!!

Hi,

Today, or maybe since yesterday has been a emo’ing.. Many would have know already, due to restructuring of operational strategy, my department of about 20-30 staff are being axed. Today is the farewell for the first batch of colleagues who are leaving.

I guess different from the other farewell, we all know that this time round even if anyone of us decide to come back to this team, it would not be possible anymore.

I have always tot that Tonkichi might be already the best working place that i have been, but this team proves me likewise. The colleagues here really practise caring and sharing in both work and personal. Always sharing news about good bargains and discounts, and help each other unselfishly in work. Haha..

Actually today should not be too sad de.. Cause one of the colleague June, will be my new colleague in my new project. Michelle is my cousin, she cant run away.

Rachel, like what she said, its not her first time anyway. But i still feel sad.. Because i know i’m not the kinda ppl who will keep in contact with ex colleagues, and we belongs to different world and frequencies, so most probably would difficult to stay in touch ba. Just wanna thank this cute little gal for all the laughters she has brought. She is one of the few who can really make me laugh uncontrollably. Though sometimes a bit attitude, but at least she is true. She makes me realise that sometimes i done certain action to accommodate others, but at e end of the day i dont really know why did i do that. Anyway jia you little gal, it doesnt matter which uni you end up in really, and i believe this one year is not wasted. Remember how you changed from feeling restless about dancing, until you look forward to every lesson? At least this one year you have found your passion again. Don give up k?

Just receive an sms from my cousin. Michelle please see my reply here to your sms=- I really don have any intention to write you are pretty, nice and cute la. Hahaha..

Next farewell will be at 13 June, friday the 13. Damn, last day of work still ganna make fun because of the date. Most probably will need a pail to hold my tears. Update then ba.. Gg viwawa for wahjong le..

Hey,

Sianz, suppose to be sleeping now but seems to be a bit awake. On my email and happen to find a irritating email. Ganna bombard when its not really my business. Gg to open war tml at work.

Our China and Bangalore friends has arrived le, been coaching a China man for the past 2 weeks. Lucky we can communicate in Chinese, hence we do not face the communication problem as what the other colleagues do. He is pretty experience, able to understand quite fast, though sometimes he tends to harp on certain point and i have to explain like 3 times to him. But overall he is quite a nice student.

Last tuesday we have a review on the training. Initially we tot that we are quite on schedule, but disappointed to find that we are only 60% complete according to the schedule. Sianz lor.. In e end we completed the 40% on that day itself despite how unwilling he is. Ahaha.. I tink i’m a very stressful teacher and insist that we must finish the schedule.

Its kinda stress to handle both the training and daily work. Tempo is very off. Sometimes really don’t know where to start from and i need to help him with some of his questions, and the word documents that they need to prepare. To accomodate another person at my desk, my originally messy but organised table has offically become just a messy table. Totally lost track of my things now. To continue on my previous blog, I’m really not a stress taker!!

I have some pending issues that have been delayed for some time already. Been wanting to settle them but its really difficult as they require full attention plus 100% clear mind to investigate. It might be just my excuse but really, with around 8-10 ppl around my area talking at the same time, its a market lor..

But i have to say, lucky i have a very good partner cum senior who is always watching my back. She is very power, can handle training, daily work, and some escalation issues from our headS. And the heads are really clever to implement changes to the process at this point of time. My work theory now is really "Na ren qian cai, ti ren xiao zai"! For the next 3 weeks the training would not be that much with me, so i will try hard to be a responsible partner too. (”,)

I tink i better sleep now. If not tml would not be ready for more war.

Nitez…

Getting kinda stress up in work recently. OR maybe its not just recently, i dono.. I tried very hard to convince myself and others that i can take all stress and solved all problems at work. I hope that ppl can see me in equality with my the other colleague. But i guess all these just make me tired mentally.

I’m rather take high volume of work which is less brain intensive then low volume of brain intensive work. Funny that i have choose an "all brain job". I hate it when i need to draft email to rebuke unreasonable vendors and staffs.. Because i know in the end it will still be ppl who are good in their language who wins the battle. And i’m kiasi to be firm on my stand. I really dono how to be tactful and straightfoward at the same!!!

SOmetimes life is so ironic. This is the period of time whereby by right i should be enjoying my work. In fact me too tot that i should be less stressful afterall all will end in june. But it doesn’t seems so. MAybe its my character. Headstrong and don’t noe when to let go..

Today i have a little disagreement with a colleague over work. Not too severe, just a conflict on our point of view. Though i know that most of the time she meant well, but its just hard for me to accept her point of view. Anyway in e end i still follow her way even if i still feel likewise. No principle I know.. AFterall she is far more experienced than me, i guess she should be correct.

BY right i should be sleeping now, but on the other hand, i’m afraid that the night will just pass like that and i need to go to work in the morning again.. Yes, i’m avoiding reality.. There is this email that i need to draft to "shoot" back at a vendor which i really dono how should i go about it.

p.s. I really missed composing sentences with "I" instead of "we". Hope tomorrow will be a better day for us.

Hi All,

Dont know how many of you have know that i’m down with food poisoning for the past one week and I’m still not complete well yet.. Thanks to a Japanese restaurant in the Takashimaya.

Please note! This restaurant is situated at the back of Taka basement,after you past by cold storage and walk on, you will see this Japanese restaurant that is quite class in the outside but NO!!! Though the food is pretty nice, but NO!!! This is the restaurant that has been causing me, jen and ml having fever, diarrhea, vomitting for the past one week. 

This is my first food poisoning experience. My immune system has always been quite good de. Guess its due to stress to maybe. The only grateful thing is that I have finally got my 1st MC in my 1year and 3 months in EPLC. Haha.. Usually will try to avoid la but this time round really feeling bad. Couldnt eat yet anything but yet keep vomiting. Not to forget the horrible stomach ache  that i have been experiencing. Have to really thank my colleague who brought me to her doctor in Tiong Bahru who finally resolved all my pains. My previous doctor, HAIZ.. CMI!!.

Anyway just have my D&D yesterday. the buying of clothes is very tedious but luckily its all worth it because he whole nite was cool and fun. Need to thank my godma Jean, ah ma and yi for accompany me to go thru this treacherous process of shopping. Almost wanted to give up not to go but seriously lucky i did not.

The process when we stay in office after work is fun too. First time put on a full make up. Need to thanks Cat and Smitha who are really great make up artist and also their kind generosity in lending their make up kit.

After after the make up session and doing our hair, we all proceed to the venue at Marina Mandarin. Something interesting here, some of them nearly when Orchard. Hahaha… Anyway when we reach there we went to take pictures as usual. Michelle wanted to play standing broad jump but i guess we went there a bit late.

Anyway I think one of the most important factor for this D&D to be such a fun one is because of the emcee. He is very funny and i must agree, he must be the naughtiest emcee you can find in Singapore. Even when announcing the lucky draw prizes he can have lots of pattern. He really send alot of us crying with laughters. There is a mini competition which we all think we should have send Jean up. Can easily trashed them manz.. But its ok, we shall wait till one day where there is cash prize, will definitely push her up. Heez..

Lucky draw as usually is a disappointment again. There is 2 tv but yet cant even win one. Its ok, EPLC’s slogan "There is always a second chance". Hahaha.. After that we went to the dance floor to dance. This is the time where i realise maybe i like clubbing but have to go with the right crowd. Hahaha.. Honestly i dont know how to dance but as my accompany are all too good le, I’m actually not reluctant to dance with them. This must be my most high party that I have ever been. Must thanks all my dancing Khakis Cat, Irene, Nadia, Jean, Rachel, Michelle and Allison who make me so high with them too. Heez.. Was actually feeling quite blessed that I have this group of colleagues who are all very onz. Imagine if a year ago i ended up in another dept, i think my only motivation will be only lucky draw.

But anyway after the fun and disappointment, its torture time again. Flagging cabs and removing make up. Oh my.. I dont know how to remove mascara!!! Hahaha.. In the end sms ah ma to help. Think next time i shall skip this. And i just realise yesterday i forgot to remove lipstick. OOpppss…

Now need to stress another thing le, birthday presents. Sianz.. Attending a party later but haven got any present. And the little girl say dont wan money. Kids are kids. Hahaha.. Going shopping later. Hope will be a smooth process. Shall pray before going out.

So everyone enjoy your weekend too!!

P.s. To all rats: My mum just came back from the temple to say next year must be careful cause "dan tai shui".

        TO all friends who are not rats: Please take care of me cause my mum say next year i might fall down.

Hi All,

Honestly as an office lady, i should be in bed now preparing for next day of work, but i just cant before i share some sentiments here.. Hahaha.. Reason? Because I have just finish watching Sammi’s concert in Hongkong DVD.

Initially i thought since i have already watch it live there, and since i have already watch again in sin, e DVD shouldnt be of much impact. But i was wrong man, when the first song start and she is out, i told parrot i seems to be able to relive the kind of touched feelings that i had when i was watching the concert in Hong Kong. And as the DVD is being extract from the last day of her concert, some of the scenes shown i have never watch before. For example, during her second encore she is holding a lollipop and a "ba gua" and asking the audience to go home because she is very hungry. Haven been eating well for past 2 months because she needs to keep fit. But anyway in e end she still sing 3 more songs for the audience and even went down to shake hand with them. ENVY!!!!

I am not a christian nor Catholic but i really wanna thank god who gave her courage to stand back to the stage again. I just cant imagine that we almost lost her if she decides not to return again.

Anyway, after watching the DVD i also kind of ponder why wasn’t i born in Hong Kong because its quite obvious that she is able to recognise a few fans in  the concert. ENVY!!!! And the HK fans sometimes also do post on the forum sharing about them sending Sammi’s flight and chit chatted with her like frens. ENVY!!!!!!!!!!

Suddenly i feel that this post is more like grumbling then sharing. Haha.. But i guess its just a natural thought for a fan to hope to be in a nearer distance with the idol. Still remember 2 weeks ago when she is here for concert, i have been bugging my fren to take in more deep breath because we are breathing in the same air as her. =o *Shy*.. Hahaha!!

Anyway ya la, just have the urge to type something here after the watching. Oh ya, today is one of my friend Birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just wanna say, you have really grown up alot for the past one year. Looking back at 1 year ago, i believe you are now a much more happier person. So going forward, please continue to learn how to "LET GO", "LET GO and "LET GO"..  Only to be able to let go of the past, then we are able to embrace a better future( Don’t know say by who but quite true). Jia You!!

Have a nice week ahead everyone!!

Hey Hey…

Update of blog again. Alot must be puzzled by my more frequent updates ba. Ahaha.. Anyway decides to blog becos happen to reach home n find that my bro isnt at home.. Hehehe…

Anyway last sat was my last lesson with my piano teacher. Hhmmm… Was kinda surprise cause she is suppose to end in another month’s time. From her conversation on the phone, I figure that the school just end her contract suddenly? Not too sure.. But e school just called up today to says that she has end her contract earlier due to health concerns. If my speculation is correct, that’s a lie. Haa.. Kinda sad at the same time cos it was sudden and i din even have time to prepare farewell gift.

Another reason why I have the urge to blog today. I have a question to ask. Am I a bully??? Please answer honestly.. (P.S Meizhen is exempted from this question.) I do agree sometimes i do get kinda out of hand when it comes to disturbing people. I never expected someone would says dat she is afraid of me. Mayb I’m just too naive tinking that if i’m only playing, its ok.. LOL.. Be it she may be just joking or really mean it, i guess there is still a need for me to do some self reflection. Gotta start behaving like a 23rd yr old working adult. But i feel old.. Irony and contradiction. Haiz.. Time to dig out my Buddha sutra for some enlightenment. Hehehe..

Shall end it here.

Hey,

Fast update this time ya? Heez…

Anyway first of all, to evrone who has tried contacting me or sms me since fri till now, sorry ah, most prob wont be able to reply until tomorrow. Reason being, i guess no need to say out rite? HAhaha…

Back to my subject, hmmm… Recently seems to be buying quite alot of farewell gifts. I’m going to prepare another one soon. For my piano teacher. She is going to teach me till end of Aug then will leave. Honestly, though I always have tonnes of complaints for her, smses in class, late for class, eat in class etc, I still feel kinda sad when she told me she is leaving. Afterall we have been seeing each other every sunday for the past one yr plus, and sometimes her Ah Lian’s style is quite interesting too. Haiz…

I guess I’m just that kinda person who does not like to have changes. But ironically, even if I don change, people and things of my surrounding  are changing constantly. So I guess the only thing I hatta do now is to get used to changes and move on. Therefore, I’m going to start looking for new teacher again. Oh ya, any lobang for 2nd hand piano??

A little update on my life. Found any part time job. Hahaha.. Don earn much, in fact Jiao thinks that I’m just having a breakeven. Heez.. For experience I guess. Hao le, going to watch TV le.

Before I end, "HAPPY 2*th BIRTHDAY AH BU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" (<—-1day advance)

Hi All..

Have been wanting to update my blog for some time but was kinda lazy, finally wait till tonite wen I have feel. Haha.. Might be a lengthy one though.

First of all, ppl who stay in touch with me often would have already my best news of the year. I manage to get a ticket to watch Sammi’s concert in HK. Its sure a risky trip cos i only manage to buy the ticket on the actual day of the concert itself. Phew.. The credit has to go to a helpful fan of Sammi. Its really a concert that couldnt be missed, esp for a Sammi fan. Its signifies a comeback for our diva, and she sure has made it big. 8 concerts in a row, all fully booked.

Honestly, immediately after she appear on stage and sing her first song, I have an urge to cry. Cry becos not only she is back to the stage, she is even better den b4. Her charisma and her skills, its really a great comeback for her. Her performance has definately made me fall deeper in love for her. Well done Sammi!!

Next, I have just turn another yr older this june. Haiz.. Looking back at my 22nd yr, achieve nothing much again this yr. Hope 23rd my direction is really set n start to work towards it. Anyway, muz take this chance to thank all my frens and colleagues for all the presents and bday treats. I like them all.

Yesterday I happen to listen an inspiring song that i used to like it alot. Its by Cai Chun Jia "梦在手里", means pursueing your dreams. It suddenly dawn upon me that after 2 yrs of working, i started to stop dreaming. If its few yrs back some1 ask me wats my dream, my answer is definately be either Sammi’s manager or her PA or anything to do with her. But now, it seems like I have lost passion about idols. Its kinda scary at the tot of it cos it used to be something that i’m crazy abt, but nw, i can actually do without it. I don like it at all. Lim Wei Qi shd be someone who will go bonkers when anyone mention abt her idols isnt it? My favourite past time shd still be surfing forums and dl their songs n mtv isnt it? Is it still possible to gain back that kinda energy n passion like i’m stil studying?

For now, there is no more dreams, but only goals. A very simple wish, to be able to take up the responsibility of my hsehold income soon n allow my parents to retire. Hence I hatta force myself to upgrade to make it happen.

Today is the last day of work for the little monkey. Went to Paris for buffet den follow by a KTV session. Though long long time ago already knows that this day will arrive one day, but still feel kinda loss ba.. After all, for the past 6 months, e 3 monkeys have been gg to toilet together, practising songs, been thru lots of nonsense together, short of one, work will feels wierd i guess cos no one will walk over to our work area and say "hey frens, toilet~~~~". Hahaha.. Just wanna say, "Rachel Lee, don worry, u’ re definately irreplacible in the 3"M" Corporation!!" Good luck k? Hope u find a job dat u like. 天下无不散之宴席, don feel too sad/guilty too. We will definately include u in our future gathering de.

Shall end here, gg to zzzzzz…..

Hihi..

The above 4 chinese words actually describe totally my feeling for the whole day since i read my 1st sms for the day..

SOme of u already noe that I’m planning to watch Sammi’s concert at Hk ba? AIr tix n hotel has been settled, except for the concert tix. Today my 1st sms told me there might b a possibility that I couldnt get the concert. Can anyone actually uds my disappointment? Haiz.. WOrst thing is when i tried to book online, i realise ALL the seats are fully booked!! Even the wheel chair area!! THis is the time when I really hope Sammi can be a little less popular so dat i could buy the tix. But of cos I’m really happy for her to have a great comeback. ALL 8 shows are fully booked, my diva is ready to shake the world with her performance again.

ANyway, my cousins r still trying to help me get the tix. PLease all help me to pray that I can get k? My irritating bro wants to use the com now. N obviously he is throwing a tantrum outside cos my dad ask me to let him use. FIne! Heez..