Kiwi is me!

Hey Hey.. I got a very exiting expereience last wekend.. Woo!!! First of AL, i finally get to step out of sin. Its almost a yr since i last left for hk.. Though this time is only malaysia, it has already greatly help to release amy streess n anxiety  that i gone thru this week… Here, i hope to thanks Simon, Cheng ge, yvvonne who try v hard to make this trip a fulfilin one..

We went there after my work at ton,reach there at abt 1 plus ine e morning.. I was so mountain tortoise.. I didnt noe if we drive personal car into malaysia, we dont hatta get out of e car de.. Hhaha.. The whole journey, i guess the car is mostly filled with me and wendi’s voices.. We started fr discussing abt 7 wonders of the world, to different design abt cars.. At times we were so engross till yvvonne hatta telll us to lower down our volume so dat she could tell simon e direction. Oops..

Den we reach our 1st stop in malaysia, ou coffeeshop dat is full of CATS!!! Yucks. i was feelin damn uncomfortable there n started to cross up my leg so dat i wont hav any chance to touched e cats..
though there were cats, but i hata admit that e food is very nice.. Esp e sting ray, very fresh lor.. Oh no i getttng hungry again le. So after e food, we went to yvvonne’s hse to slp.. Its a clean place where gv us a v homely feelin.. Do u noe that in malaysia they nd to lock their water suppply? Told u i’m sua gu le..Anyway dat nite we play daidee tilll ard 6 den we ko..

Den 2nd day its e real exciting one!! I finally get to see My gOdson.. He is so KaWaII!!!! Resembles his mum alot.. CArrryin his smalll body in my tremblin us really motivates me to hav one too.. Heee.. He is really so soft n fragile.. N his head is too heavy for his body le, he keep fallin backwards..

Attendin tis party let me realise time passes so fast tat i don even noe wen did it sneak thru..10 mths ago i was still pesterin meili, askin her is her son comin out already, until now,i saw my godson, cryin n slpin in front of me..

after shopping, we went for a little shoping den hav a BIG feast..yAy!! We hav a seafood meal that includes crabs, oatmeal crayfish!! Erm, though their seeafood aren’t v fresh, but i hatta admit their cookin was great.. I ate quite alot, esp e oatmeal.. I must t hank chengge n simon for this dinner le.. really cost a bomb n nt allowin me to pay some $$ too..

returnin to sin is another new experience.. Tis my 1st time walkin and takin bus to e custom.. Its cool leh.. walkin wif so many ppl.. But my bag was rather heavy that day cos i bought durian n hide in my bag.. Lyucki my dad came to fetch me..

Enuff of malaysia, on mon i late again le.. had difficulty wakin up dono y.. Den on e saem day, ganna scold by a damn ang moh for nothing.. I gt e urge to quit ,again.. But i lazy to say la, so suan le lor… e toopid ang moh threatened to complain to my mgr.. How i wish i could say go ahead lor.. But gd cust service, i ren!! I hate ang moh!!

After Rmg, i went to meet jing to go ton together.. Reason being i don wanna go work alone cos today gt ks.. Though i noe 1 day i stilll hatta face her de.. Luckily evrth was normal.. Both of us try to act as if nothin happen.. She gt initiate some small chats, and help me to tak things.. I aso did my part too hor.. I help her do duty, N i didn angry bcos i sweep. Heee… Though ddint say sori, but shd b ok ba..

Thurs i saw her again, v normal le.. But hor, she discover 2 things that e staff was hidin fr her.. OH NO!!! haaha.. But shd b nothin b.. Hopefulli..

i gg to eat breakfast le, gg to work at ton.. EvrOne, Today is Ah Bu’s (xUan) BDAY.. WISH HER HAppy BDaY K??

                                HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AH BU!!!!!!!!!!

Eventful week definately.. But too bad i started e week with the wrong foot. Now for the whole week, i’m burden by guilts and embarrassment, n cowardice.

Send a fateful sms to my manager. Mayb i really hav a super low eq wen i woke up ba.. Saw her quite negative reply(at least at e moment of time, i felt negative), i reply back with hurtings words n uncover the existing facts that were nv no1 ever dare to talk abt.

I didtn say all thos words bcos of anger, instead, i hope she can understand e reaason for certain things. My colleagues find life harder to pass in tonkichi. But anyway e moment wen i’m conscious, i started to regret le.. I asked alot of person for advie, wendi tot it is realli straightward but not too offencing.. Meiling, juli parrot n eileen said that since she treated quite well, i shdn’t have said all this. N since i’m more like sayin out wat e f/t staff r tinking, e more i shdnt b e person who say. Cos its their own matter.

Meiling say she mux be quite hurt ba.. Nv did she expect i will say such stuff..hAiz.. Now e questions is, how can i savage the situation???

I oe tis is no longer wat coffee can help le.. Jing say she is nt angry, juz tot that mayb my mood too bad thats y like tis.. But we  tink that she noes e truth but don wanna admit. Anyway 1 things dat i’m agree with jing is dat she has a v strong character.. So mayb wat i say wont hav any impact on her.

The prob now is longer is she angry or  nt le. Cos she has e right.. I v afraid dat my words might hurt her feeelins and i cant forgv myself for doing such things. My principle in life is nt to let ppl lose face, but y was i so rash to go against my principle.. I guess afterall i belongs to e hell more den heaven ba.. Even until today i still don dare to face her.. Hopin that my futr schedule wont b able to work wif her le.. COs i really no face, n aso dono hw to act normal in front of her..

Anyway, yst was graduation ceremony.. Was really excited abt the whoel thing initially. But as e time came closer, e more disappointment i gt. At first we plan to go watch initial D after ceremony, but den feng, parrot n ah bu cant make it one by one.. Hiaz.. To tink dat we were once hangin out together in e sch n even outside e sch so often.. Hav we finsih using up all the time dat we shd spend together?

But anyway wen i was at e hall, sittinf down n waitin to go on stage, i was so nervous dat all my feelings were numb.. Its hard to imagine how shakey is exactly my leg is.. I almost tot i couldnt make it up e stage, or most prb b e first to fall on e stage.. Lucki i didnt.. Evrth juz flew past FAST.. haha.

DEn after e ceremony we took many photos and even went up to stage to re-enact e prize givin ceremony.

So evr gatherin will has it finale.. In e end, onli left me, meizhen, jes and shiya who went to e dinner together.. E feelin was aso memorable.. Cos all 3 of them r one of the first few classmates who i talk to or mayb leave a deep impression.. Hahaha.. Yeah den we went to watch Initial D n end up gg gaga over edison instead of e male lead.. Hee.. Oh ya, i forgot to mention dat i met joyce and olivia at westmall.. So excitin. cos was disappointed at 1st bcos they didnt attend e ceremony, but who noes we will c each other. Joyce is still e same, always looks so tired.. Muz b more energetic K? ask u to slp early le lor.. As for olivia, she rebonded her hair (i like her hair), n haha.. she wore a quite stylo pink spectacles.. Though i coudnt hold my laughter wen i c her, but actually quite nice lor..

Today i finally bought e puma bag that i fall for it at e first sight.. i tink mayb ah bu will like it btu.. edesign is so stylo, n until juz now den uii realise that is a shoes compartment.. Cool!! But its quite big.. So i will try my best to create more opportunity for me to show off.. Hahaha..

Hao lah..Thats all for this entry. Pls wait til my nx bad mood day ba..Hee..

Hihi!! Long time no blog le.. Lazy lah.. Bo bian, now more n more lazy leh.. Hee..

Erm.. Dat day i meet up with Yixin.. Hav a talk wif her.. DEn realise that actualli i’m a v hao sheng person.. Mayb that explains y that though i nv try to compete anyth, yet i always bcome 1 of their competin target.. N aso explains y i hav a v low tolerance certain frens who always liek to put down ppl to make emselv high..

Though uds but to b able to overcome all these will stil b challengin bcos of my pride.. Haiz.. But i reallly don uds y ppl will get high wen they found ppl weakness n keep stampin on it.. Wat kind of mindset they hav.. I’v gt e answer le.. But nt gg to say it here..hee..

Y did i hav this heading? Bcos of today work at tonkichi.. Erm.. Throw tantrums again low.. HAha.. Over some stupid things.. First is some mei liang xin ppl plan me to sweep despite my hatred for it.. Den one of my colleagues fa pi qi wen me n my other colleague try to help her.. HOw Yuan waNg can it b.. Haiz.. Anyway really xi guan le..

Yah lor, den is e climax.. My mgr suddenly face black.. Den wen i ask her wat happen, she say no one is workin.. Evrth aso expect her to do.. I !!!!!! I’m tryin so hard to look after my station, Wen its busy, i even try to balnce plates, chawan, baby bowls and fruits all in one trip.. N in e end wat i gt is no one is workin. Haiz…

So basically i start to throw tantrums at her by refusin to eat supper, replyin her wif cold tones.. Don look directly at her.. Ahaha( Seriously i tink i am really childish lor.. i’m v hungry now) Anyway  ltr she v hao si.. she offer to exchange duty wif me.. I was v tempted lor, but cos of my pride.. somemore i suan her back.. "i better do my own things if nt someone will say i nv zhuo gong".. AHahha.. But anyway she ltr explain that she wasn’t referring to me.. For qin if u happen to read this blog, she say she tinks dat onli e 2 of us r working..

Anyway juz sms her to apologise for my bad temper..  i guess, since i’m 21 one, shd b more mature n responsible for my actions ba.. But i juz cant control.. In short terms, i’m a petty gal with super low eq.. AAArrrggghh.. Don wanna live le..

Shun bian say someth here.. Even e guy i like aso tink dat i’m quite bad temper..

Anyway, nx wed will b graduation day le.. V lookin forward to c frens.. Hahaha..

C ya.. Tak care