Hi All,
As per title, this shall be my last post here. Unable to write freely anymore makes this blog meaningless. Thanks to evrone who has been reading, and bothered to find out about my updates in life. We all can still email, sms or even write letters to updates. Haha..
Take care~~
Just finish the last ep of starlit “心星的泪光”, the latest taiwan drama that i have been introducing (or maybe forcing) people to watch. Its not that exaggerated as those typical taiwan drama. Its a romance, but at the same time talking about facing death and living no regrets in life.
Its pretty wierd, from the first episode i already know that the female lead is going to die, but somehow when it reach the part, my tears couldnt control. I guess even if i know she will die ultimately, in a little place in my heart i was still wishing for a miracle. Haiz..
But at least its not a total sad ending though.. (this is suppose to be an encouraging show) Though her family and friends has lost her physically, but the things that she has left behind will always be with them forever. Its actually a bit chim for me to understand completely the message the drama is trying to convey, but the story has definately touched me and sent me into thinking.
If you all do have some time and wants to look for a decent drama, can consider this..
Nitez..
Just came back from Hui Yi’s advance bday celebration. Pretty interesting.. Cos went to Mustafa for the first time in my life. Quite interesting to find that there are really selling alot of things inside.. Its just like another carefour but cheaper according to Yi. Wanted to buy a perfume from there, but too bad couldnt find it in e end. So still have to trouble ducky to buy from airport.Heez..
We went to somewhere nearby for dinner. Ate a very interesting dish. I tink shd be call pan-fried bee hoon? Its normal beehoon with egg and other ingredients, but its crispy on top. Love the taste.. N some other dish like roasted chix, deep fried tofu etc all taste nice. Drooling now already. Must thanks yi for bringing us there and treat us to this nice dinner. After that we proceed to this place call Rochester to chill out. Din know this place exist, really a part time singaporean. Haha.. Its a place with very nice ambience. Basically they divided their place with different themes like living room, balcony, dining room etc. The decorations are cool. They adopt a more english kinda furnishing. Makes me feels like eating desset. *_*
This kinda romantic ambience place never fails to make me feel sleepy. Haha.. Luckily our group is good at entertaining each other with photography(with hp) and some lame jokes and story we created. After today, most of us have a new names le.. Hhmm.. Shall keep btw us.. Hahaha..
Next, the things that I wanna write may be a litle disturbing.
Just wanna write a little about my recent vomitting. Or mayb not only recently. Friends who often meet me for dinner will know that after meals i tend to rush to the toilet. Somehow the food just don get digested. I have seen doctors and also seek advice from some friends. One of my ex colleague is urging me to go for a gastro scan. She believes my prob comes from my gastric. But the scan sounds pretty scary de. I prefer to take Doc’s advice. Doctor told me its heartburn. Haha.. That means while eating, i tend to trap too much gas. So i went online to search for ways to prevent this. I do try to adopt some suggestions like eating slower, don talk while eating, avoid drinking gasssy drink, spicy food etc. Its improving now.
What bother me most is i tink becos of this, i’m experiencing some other changes in my body. Being a very kiasi person, evrtime i feel unwell, i will go online and check out the possible causes. And this time, i found myself having some symptoms of anorexia. Definately not psychologically bcos i’m trying my very best to curb myself from throwing up. Bu seems like my body don feel so. Like i’ve been dropping alot of hairs. Was just telling them i really need to consider go yunan or beijing le. Haiz.. My hands are dry. Not scalely, but rough. I have been applying hand cream in office but doesnt seems to help much. At nite i sometimes have difficulties getting to slp. Needs to read or watch tv to make me sleepy before i can slp. Occasionally will experience giddy spells.
Its scary to find so much similarities. Some symptoms could be due to other reasons, but i tink there might really be a link since similar as anorexia ppl, me too vomit after meals. Haiz…
Of cos i din have all symptoms la. Comes to think, if i only vomit occassionally to show the symptoms, i cant imagine e anorexia patients cos i suppose they vomit evr meal. Since i have already done some research on this for myself, so will just share what i find here.
As people who are suffering from anorexia wants to slim down as much in the shortest time, they will usually tend to use slimming pills, laxavative pills, vomitting or avoid eating. Just for reference, below are some symptoms i found online.
E above is just physical symptoms. Having insufficient nutrients in the body will gradually affects them pychologically and emotionally too. This could be scarier cos it affects the patient in the long run or even whole life. They will start to be very mindful about body shapes. Keep feeling they are big size and must slim down alot. And it may even extend to ppl around them. Below is a link on this. Inside highlight about the difference between dieting and anorexia.
http://www.helpguide.org/mental/anorexia_signs_symptoms_causes_treatment.htm
Many of them suffered this becos they feel powerless in their life, hence they want to find confident in something that they can control. It may also be a way of punishing themselves. As this could be fatal, therefore anyone who is suspected of being anorexia should visit a counsellor or doctor soon before its too late. Unfortunately, they will usually be in a denial mode, so many often have to depend on their family and friends to help.
Another reason i wanna write about the above is becos due to our hectic life nowadays, more and more ppl are experiencing it too. Personally i have heard of the same problem from some of my friends already.
Alot of times we are under great amount of stress and always feels dat time is not enough. Thats why we have prob like heartburn/indigestion bcos we couldnt let our body digest the food in peace. And when the stress does not get release, over some time it will turn to become a burden in the heart, and drove them to seek alternate ways to release their stress. Anorexia could be one of them. Many times, alot of these are the work of vicious cycle.
So friends, please learn to relax and destress at times ya. Love yourself and your family. Seek help when there is a need. I believe there are always ppl who cares and ready to help. =)
Enjoy life friends!!
上个拜五看到了一个从电视里走出来的人。梁文音！！
从星光2开始注意她的吧。记得每个星期四都一定要赶着回家看她比赛。连加班也尽量不要安排在礼拜四因为我要为她加油。但是其实是很傻的，因为当这个节目在scv播出的时候其实成绩早就已经知道了。那时候scv是等人家台湾比晚了整个赛季才播。就是这样傻傻的在电视旁边支持她，看着她一路成长到今天已经是发片歌手了。真得很感动，因为她真得很棒。唱歌和她坚持音乐的态度都是软我佩服的。她的新歌“最幸福的事”很适合她。因为她唱个总是连带微笑，所以我们全家都非常喜欢看她唱歌。
因为这次我参加了她的后援会，所以有幸站在最前排看她。听到她的live演唱真的是惊为天人。宛如冲CD播出来一样，好无瑕疵。声音和人都太美了。一切都好像是在做梦一样。真得很幸福。尤其是当她主动下台来跟我们Hi 5 的时候，真得太不真实了。她真地从电视走出来站在我的面前。而我，竟然跟她Hi 5 乐。
她总共唱了3首歌。台下的互动还算是不错。不过略显得有点害羞吧如果要跟之前去过的签唱会比起来。文音很可爱，不是回摆一些pose 给我们拍照，尽量做到没冷场。当她跟歌迷玩游戏的时候也一直在做一些搞怪的声音和表情骗那些在台上和他玩游戏的知音们（当天玩的是类似恐怖相的游戏）。不过很心疼的是当她看到dj 把面包放进去的时候她一直在说“好浪费哦”。我想她真的饿了。因为她不是会按着肚子。
玩完了就是签名的时候了。差点上不去因为我买的不是改版专辑。还好有位好心的知音买了extra的CD借我。上台时她非常亲切的对每个知音们笑和握手。原本有好多话要跟她说的最后都忘了。只很蠢得跟她说“你真人比照片好看”=_=; 还有更蠢的“我爸也很爱你”。哈哈！！
有一点很可惜的事都没有跟她合到照。在签唱会不好意思问，她离开新加坡那一天因为有不课又不能去送她。真得很遗憾。但是没办法啦，只好等下一次了。 直到现在还一直在听着她的CD,回味一下。
不过真的要感谢一些人让我这次的经验非常棒。第一个当然是新加坡后援会的知音们。没有她们的lobang,我想我应该没办法站在这么近的距离听她唱歌吧。还有就是明明！！谢谢你陪我去！！辛苦你了。希望文音的歌声能让你觉得是值得的.HEezz..
参加完着签唱会之后，我突然好象有些领悟。我在这里看到了跟我很相似的人。我发现我为什么我这么喜欢追偶像的过程了。有时候在现实生活会觉得无所适从的我，在追偶像的时候却能够更一群素未谋面的人一起去做一件事。感觉好奇妙哦。或许有时我只想逃避现实吧。我肯定不是宅女，不过我或许有点自闭。最近从同时口中知道原来自闭不只是不爱说话。爱说话也有可能是自闭症的一种症状。没听说过吧。哈哈。。
这文篇超长的，有是华语，大概也没几个人会读完吧。无所谓，就当做是自己对自己的评价单吧。因为我又了解自己多一点了。
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVRONE!!!!!!!!!!!!
The question dat was posted to me in year 2008 is how do i feel about year 2008. My answer is “damn it”. Ahaha.. Its not that something bad has been, its just dat it has been another year past without any much changes to my life. I dono how many friends will feel dat another year has past without careful thoughts and well cherish, but i hereby wishes all my friend a fruitful year 2009, don let another year be wasted, plan, work hard and receive the positive results.
Thinking back in year 2008 what I’ve been through, hmmm.. In January, we receive the announcement about the restructuring of our client’s operation, and our jobs will be affected. I remember that day that i received the news, on the same night we went to Siew Khim’s dad funeral. Time flies and it has already been 1 year le. I’m glad to see her getting on with her life well now. =)
Then some of us proceed on to the new project while the rest leave and find a new opportunity outside. To be seperated from such a great working team is really painful. Therefore it has made accepting the new project difficult too cause i have prob letting go. Starting from the new project till now is already 6 months le, we have more or less get use to it le, occassionally still can “eat snake” a while so still not too bad.
In year 2008 I started playing Viwawa. Ahaha.. This website has keep us occupied during the later part of the restructuring when our jobs have been taken over. It almost become a whole department exercise. Even ppl who dono how to play mahjong learn during dat period. Ahaha.. 苦中作乐. Went to Taiwan for the first time with Meiling and Siling. Its a great company as both of them knows Taiwan pretty well. I also started taking my ACCA this year. On and off i still do feel lost as in why do i want to take this. But i knew that i need to to at least have a more secure future. If u ask me what do i really wanna do, since primary 6 it has never change before, “to be Sammi cheng’s manager”. Hahah..
I’m thankful to all my friends who has made the last 2 weeks of 2008 a fun and enjoyable one. 20 Dec we have a gathering cum Christmas party with the old team. Its really happy to be able to catch up with the team again. The atmosphere is amiable. On Christmas eve e vb gals booked a room in OCC to countdown together. We played some games, went outside of this coffeehouse to countdown with the party inside. The later part of the nite is filled with BGR discusssion. Hahaha.. Christmas itself I went to celebrate with Jing and gang at LS house. Very happy to be able to eat alot of food. Ahaha.. Because after LS house we went to QIn’s house to have steamboat. Wooh.. Very thank you to Auntie’s kind hospitality. She really prepare alot of food to make sure we have enough to eat. On 26 we have BBQ with the same gang plus Zhihao, Joe, Ah lay, Sihui and etc. Yeah alot of food again.. Hohoho..Though i feel very grouchy due to lack of sleep but glad to say i still enjoy myself. And thanks for all the Christmas presents that I have received this year. As usual i don have much chance with food but i like all the presents I have received. THANK YOU!!!!
Yesterday went to watch fireworks with Jing, Ling, Xin li and Felicia. Its not the first time i went to watch, but this time round is the first time i really feel dat its very beautiful and captivating. Maybe because this is the first time i sit down to watch? I really dono. I feel fireworks is such an amazing product. Each time it shoots up, it feels like its gg to get you. The feeling is like “so near but yet so far”. Esp the ending part when the fireworks continously shot up and each one is like getting nearer and nearer to me. All i could do is “wow” and stare at it. Maybe starting from year 2009, I’m a fireworks fan now. Ahaha.. We all made a pact to return this year end to watch again, don forget ya. Heez..
This is the time wen we set resolution again. Evrone THINK!!
Yesterday when i went to the client’s place, feel a little affected ba. They are gg through some kind of restructuring and alot of ppl have left.
Though leaving is depressing in this kinda economy but i can feel that ppl who are still around wouldnt feel much better. I saw this scene just now in the office where this man bid his colleagues goodbye in 3 consecutive weeks. He changes from a big room to small room, sending them off one by one, he seems to feel quite helpless about the situation. I understand because i been through this just this year and i detest the tot about gg back to the same office but with different colleagues. Maybe my feelings are more extreme ba, but anyway i got through it because i realise being angry at something that could not change the reality is pretty dumb. And human needs to adapt to changes. This is the reality this is the real world.
But still evrtime i heard of retrenchment, even if it happens in other companies, i feel depressed. Initially i tot its because of my own experience, it still matters more or less but i guess the main reason is because I’m still not ready to face the fact that i still do not possess the strength to keep up with the deteriorating economy and upcoming competition. If one day i leave my company, how confident am i to say dat i can survive? I really dono. Its not dat my company is really dat great though. 现实是残酷的，我不想面对。。
ANyway tml gg to have bbq with the old team. Yea, at least something to look forward during the weekend. Some couldnt make it but at least most did. Anyway I’m finally gg to utilize my swimsuit le. But still feel a little shy. See how it goes ba. May this swimsuit not fated to be wear. Or mayb i shd just save it to my next Taiwan trip when i finally can go hot spring. Ahaha..
Shall update soon.
Recently i re read the blog post thati have written in year 2005, and a mixture of emotions start floating out. It sounds so oldies to be recapping what happen in the past, but i guess occassionally lookingback to the history will show clearly wat has changed.
I miss my poly life. The kind of life that whereby our worries are mostly short term(abt sch and tonkichi). Unlike now, no matter studies or work,i need to consider for long term. Not only for myself but for my family too. If ony i can reset my mindset to the time when i’m in tonkichi or RMG, mayb i’m a happier person now? Remember that time i can say and do watever i want, i can show face to the kiasi uncle without needing to worry i lose my job because i don care. Not dat i wanna show my mgr face now, just dat i know if 1 day i’m unhappy with him, i wouldnt dare to too.
I also miss the days where we will always take note of 5566 schedule and queue for the whole days. Or chatting about Sammi’s latest movies and songs. I tink my greatest interest in life in abt idols, thats y i’m v thankful to be able to meet with this bunch of frens who share the same passion as me. Its also because of their company that in my life, i would at least have done things that are crazy in most ppl’s eyes.Hahah..
Ever since i started the new project, i will have seen through a fact, colleagues are just colleagues. Though we will still help each other in terms of work, but that is only when nothing happens. When evrone has a dateline to meet, good luck. I have experience it in my first month, dats why mayb i become a more selfish person? I don’t know. To friends i hope i haven change ba. I tink i’m losing myself.Cause i also know i owe my results to some of my frens who help me along the 7yrs education frm secondary to Poly.
Anyway if any yr 3 classmates who took bus 74 together and are reading this blog, do u still remember “David”? The imaginary fren from Qiulin who nv fails to freak Oli out. Hahaha.. I remember E 1st time i stepped into our 3rd year class, i don’t really like it cos it. And wat changes my impression of this class is when i start taking bus with some of them. Alot of nonsenses along the way, and we were always tryng to emphasize we are from SP. oopppss… It makes my 3rd year less miserable than expected ba i guess. Soemtimes life is wierd. Just a little simple thing can link different ppl together.
Pretty thankful that i have this blog which helps me to contain the memories that might have faded over the times. Its a pity that i did not start earlier. Friends who have blog, if you have some free time, or if u feel that u r feeling confused in ur current situation, you can try reading the blogs that u have written during ur school time to find back back the innocent faith which u have once believe. Be it friends, love or families.
Enjoy ur Sunday.
?Yesterday just had a performance together with my Chinese orchestra in SP. Suppose to feel excited over the performance but met with an accident that caused jitters along the way to SP.
Most people should know both my dad and bro are also part of the orchestra, so it seems pretty like a family outing to me.(My mum in charge of carrying clothes. Oooppsss..) We took a chartered bus with the other orchestra members with all the instruments too. This bus did not leave a good first impression to me actually. Partly is becos this bus look lok kok lok kok one. And once we step onto the bus, I can smell a strong stench smell.
AFter we board the bus then i fell aslp. Suddenly i heard a few uncles say "gg to bang le"(in chinese). I tot sure wont have anything since they are shouting to the driver, but before i know there is a collision that throw me to the back of the seat in front of me. Lucky my hand reflex helps a bit to block the force, if not my buck teeth now will go inner. (Eh, shd try hor.. Touchwood)
The accident happen pretty soon. We r at Bishan, and accident happen in Thomson road, between Prata house and Thomson plaza. I tink its still v sudden to most ppl cos alot of ppl suffered from the collision. Most ppl is the same as me, bang my face only. One uncle poor thing, bang his teeth.. And another bang her nose which became blue black ltr on. Haiz.. As for the bus, the wind screen are all cracked but not shattered. The bus bang into a 855 bus. The 855 back are all dented. I hope no one is thrown out from the centre seat of laast row. Don wanna imagine. =_=;
Anyway ltr the traffic police came and ask wat happen, then announce that this bus is unfit to drive anymore. So the chartered bus company arranges another bus to pick us up. While waiting, the uncles were saying 人算不如天算。Cos we are on the schedule and by right we shd reach on time. Who knows this happens which disrupt our schedule. Actually really cant understand y this happens cause b4 the collision the uncles are already alerting the driver but he stil din react in time. Wat to say? Suay lor.. After that my mum told me she is actually worry wat will happen if we all die together. E HDB will be given to the goverment. When i heard this i told myself lucky we survive. Hahaa..
But only lucky thing that comes from the accident is the next bus that comes to pick us is much more comfortable. SOmething like those we take for school outing, the bus one more like school bus or factory bus. But even if we are in the 2nd bus already, we still feel scared scared. Wenever the bus got abit near to another vehicle we will make some noise. CAnt really seat in peace.
This is not the end yet. After we reach SP, an uncle discover that while packing the instrument, they forgot to take his "luan". So i suggested to him to take the instrument that i’m playing "pipa" cos they brought along an extra one. Btw this uncle is my first teacher who taught me "pipa". He accepted the suggestion and i was v happy cos that means i no need to seat on the 1st row le. Hahah.. My mum was v concern if i’m presentable because i need to seat on e 1st row during all performance. Phew..
But just as we r preparing for rehearsal, i discover a more 晴天霹雳thing. One "divider" of my Pipa has dropped. = to there is a few notes that i cant play = there are some songs i cant complete = i have to act on stage that i’m playing. ITs v v v demoralising thing. Though i really have stage fright, but i do train for this performance too. I don mind not getting the glamour but i at least do hope that all the practises can be presented out. SO disappointed i finish the performance with my defective instrument. Haiz..
Its actually a concert from this music school that invited us to play like live band that kind, instead of they using karaoke system. Overall most of the songs we played ok, got 2 we really have to say sorry to the singers. But they are all v great singers i must say. They are the teachers of the music school. Great melodious voices.
ANyway this performance finally ended le, less one thing to stress abt. Nx one is my law test on nx tues which i haven start reading at all. Shall start studying after watching 篮球火. ITs really a nice show!LOves jerry.. Ahaha..
Enjoy ur lovely sunday!
Hihi,
Met up with Mz for lunch just now, pretty good catch up. Talk to her about the issue that has been bothering me for the past one week, though issue still stays, but it feels better to have someone who understand. Nothing serious, just some thoughts that have been bothering me. Maybe its i 钻牛角尖吧。Pretty thankful that i’m not the only person who will actually have such thoughts.. Points noted, but i tink i will just leave things at it is ba. Maybe the next time we meet we can have conclusion. Heez.. (To MZ: Jia you k, u must persevere in your beliefs to help more ppl. No matter how big or small or how impressive or normal ur case is, evrone that u have helped will be as grateful. Just don make me pay $30 for your counselling fees) =)
Anyway just went to dentist and doctor to consult on my teeth and eyes problem that have been a existing prob recently. Teeth went crooked and i tot i have wisdom tooth. Misunderstanding. Hahaha.. The dentist says its late teen crowding, in simple terms i tink its late puberty for my teeth grow. By rite they shd have stablelize by now, but by left, they seems to b still growing. Dentist cant confirm if they will still grow, so i can choose to monitor or braces. Of cos monitor la. See how much more can they grow ba.. I don see an immediate need for braces cos it does not affect my work, but i cant really stand having buck teeth at the age of 24. Sad..
Went to a doc to consult abt my eyes irritation recently. The irritation is cause by my tear duct which i don even know it exist all along. Hahah.. This is a simple income for the doc. I went in and came out in less than 5 mins, and $23 flew. Consolation is at least i got an eye drop for the irritation and the doc is handsome. Hohoho.. That one should be a bonus actually.
Ok gg to distribute souvenirs le, and just to grumbl, Feng forget our meeting again.. Haiz.. Feng, our airport is full of aeroplanes le.. Heez.. We will meet up soon to receive ur bomb.
Take care all, enjoy ur dinner.
Getting pretty stress recently, abt work as usual and some other tots that have been gg through my mind.. Stressed but dono how to write it out here. Haiz.. So its actually just 废话here. But one thing i know, I’m startin to lose my original self..I tink i’ve changed. Confused.. Update another time ba..
Have a nice weekend.
